It has been awhile since I posted, so I thought I would just check in. Things have been crazy, but in a good way. We have taken a time that could’ve potentially broken us and made it into an anchor for us to build and learn from. We discovered that as much as we thought we were communicating, we were leaving the little things unsaid. Now, they may be fine on occasion, but over time the little things build up and they can weigh heavily on you. So we began writing to each other. We have two journals and we trade them nightly so we can read and respond. Writing has always been a good outlet for me. Something about seeing the words that have been trapped inside you is freeing. I am able to vent those little fits in ways that won’t damage us and he can do the same. Plus by writing to each other, one has to hear the entire argument without being able to interrupt or veer off. It allows you to see what they are feeling, why they feel that way, and possible ways to fix it. So because I have been writing and venting to him, I haven’t needed this blog as an outlet as much. I hope to continue it, however it feels almost like looking on a past life. I feel like I have lost myself and found myself at the same time. I still yearn for certain aspects of what my life had become, however I am excited by the possibilities my future holds. Have you ever felt that way? What are you supposed to do with it? I plan to try and write weekly, possibly changing the theme, haven’t decided yet. If anyone has any suggestions please let me know. I think I know where I want to end up, just have to figure out the path that gets me there. I hope you have a wonderful day.